You're It!

Being with my mother in a hotel room for 2 weeks (going on 3) has not been easy. The first day we both slept 12 hours because we needed it. The other days she got up at 2AM because she was hungry. Now I know what mothers go through and it's not a walk in the park. She would wake me with the noise of rummaging through food, pacing back and forth and turning on the lights. I wanted to scream: "Let me sleep!" But I'm not trying to get into an argument at 2AM, so I settled with tsk-ing (sucking my teeth).

Lat night, she got up every 2 hours because she couldn't stay still and I took that opportunity to write lyrics to YouTube beats. Hey, I might as well make the most of an uncomfortable situation. I wrote about my dad and it felt good to release all of that from my memory.

Today my mom wanted to go to church (which she hadn't gone to in years), and was insistent on going back to the house. She's obsessed with our neighborhood. Mind you, I'd like to stay inside in the comfort of the hotel room. I told her, "I'm not going." My sister was on her way here and I had to use the bathroom, was hungry and tired. What a bad combo to be in.

I told my sister that my mom wanted to walk around, and she said she could find her on the app we share. I told her that my mom was headed to the house and my sister panicked because she knows my mom wants to go in the house when she shouldn't. They're working on the house, so she shouldn't be in their way. Also, my mom could get hurt.

Tag, you're it! In a way, this is my break. That's the silver lining. My sister might've gotten upset and frustrated but I deal with those emotions on a daily and have to swallow them to take care of my mom. It's upsetting and frustrating when family members "care," but don't do anything for my mom or offer to help me. They want her to go to Puerto Rico. Okay, then y'all take care of her. I don't want to go on "vacation" because it's two-times the work. They'll just have to manage her blood sugar levels and that's no easy task. They need to come over here and help her. Also, take her to her doctor's appointments but no one does it. And y'all claim to love her. Not enough to deal with her, though.

It seems like this was my mom or God's way of saying, "Take a break now." Even if it was for an hour and half, it was worth it.